It may sound a little silly, but in moments of desperation or frustration, really works to call Jesus and tell him exactly how we feel.
I was in church for many years, and “knew a great deal about the bible.” I remembered that my pastor told me once, that I was an elderly of the church to my surprise. And even after that, at one point, I found myself struggling and I said in my heart, I need Jesus.
And I told him. I said Lord, Jesus, I need you. I need you to fix my life. I need, you.
And I started surfing the web about Jesus. I subscribed to newsgroups about Jesus. And all I found were people denying God and cursing. I started talking to them, exposing the gospel. I started telling them about Jesus. All the words were coming back to me. And at the same time, those words were talking to me.
The whole bible started having a more especial meaning. Every story in the bible was like brand new. The stories that I heard since I was a child got a special power and sounded different.
Then, the greatest thing happened. The Lord started working with me. I never felt him so close. My prayers were answered, I changed. Everything changed. I started seeing things from a different perspective.
So many things that I used to believe, I started seeing them as they were. I realized that I was believing many lies.
I understood that The Lord truly love us and care about us. That the blessing of God is always there if we just can see it. Also, I understood that I was blind, that I couldn’t see. The Lord opened my spiritual eyes. I also understood, that I was never as righteous as I thought. But that The Lord could take me through all the way if I just trust him.
I learned that I would never be the same. I started seeing things differently, feeling more compassion, caring more about others. I got so sensitive, that I even started liking Opera. I mean Christian Opera and old music. I was living every feeling coming from the music.
When I read the news, I prayed in the spirit. Every morning was a day for The Lord.
Spiritual God 